On Friday, Steve asked if the Mormon Mission was the "Best Two Years" or "A Waste of Time." I was interested to read Mark's response and spent a lot of time today thumbing through old missionary journals of my own.
I have the fondest memories of my mission. I was extremely idealistic. We were able to do many worthwhile projects such as teach English lessons, help build chapels, and give personal service to those in need. Yes, there was plenty of tracting, but I don't think of it as a waste of time. It helped me become disciplined and do tough work for a cause larger than myself.
Much of my mission was a cycle between killing myself working and keeping rules overzealously, then relaxing and letting standards drop, then repenting and another pendulum swing back to zealousness. One of my most shocking entries comes when I was in what was fondly known as "The Red Light District."
"Saturday was the Rev's last P-Day. (Note: we all had nicknames, mine was Tabitha. I forget why.) So we decided to spend the whole day together. We got up and went to the Elders' at 7:30 for a District breakfast of crepes. Then we all got on one bed and covered up with the sleeping bag and talked. It gradually turned into a pillow fight which was worse than our infamous football game. We later went into the country with an investigator, Pierrette, and her roommate. We were going to chop down a Christmas tree. While we were there, Tae (Elder Taetafa) and I were fooling around on a frozen lake. Well, you guessed it, the ice broke and we fell in. Can you imagine? Tae only got his legs wet but I fell all the way in and the Rev had to pull me out. So OK we went back and I put on Prince's jeans and sweater. Then we decorated the tree with the investigators.
For dinner we went to eat at I.P. Looneys. All the elders like to go there on their last P-Day because if you are wearing a tie the waitresses will come around and cut them off. We got there at 6:00 and they told us the wait was about 2 hours. So we thought we would go window shopping in the mall. Rev got in a shopping cart and Sister Fleming and I got in on top of him and the other Elders pushed. Then we went inside and sang Christmas carols in 4-part harmony to all the shoppers. As we walked back to the restaurant the Rev did a Fred Astaire dance up the side of the wall and when he came down he wiped out. He was in pain so the other Elders carried him back to the restaurant. The waitresses helped him to the table--one on each arm. We ordered dinner and finished eating around 12 pm.
The investigators took us back to our car. Then the Rev thought he'd better go to the hospital to get his leg checked. So we're sitting in the hospital at 1 am. Tae and Leggs are sleeping on the couch. Prince is in there with the Rev. Me and Elder Wood are sitting on another couch, talking about how to spiritually change the very material we are made of so we won't be burned as straw in the refiner's fire in the last days. The Rev ended up with crutches and a cast on his broken leg. We got home at 3am.
Then up for Church this morning--it was really strange. The Elders and us both overslept, but their phone rang at 8:00. They called us to see if it was us, and woke us up. We all would have missed Church! After Church we had a District DA (Dinner Appointment) at Tolley's, then back to Church for Brand & Brown's baptism. Brand, Wood and I sang "Look Inside." She was so beautiful and the Spirit was so strong. She was so fresh and pure when she came out of the water. After the baptism RL District stayed at the chapel and played the piano and sang songs until 12:30. I'm tired. Rev goes home tomorrow (with a cast!)"
The next several pages I am so ashamed of myself, I quit talking in English, will only speak in French (anybody remember SYLing?) and refuse to let myself open letters from home during the week (only on P-Day). I write a letter of confession to the Mission President and the ZL's come out to interview us!
My two oldest daughters just left on missions recently. One went to Korea in October and the other just left in January for Italy Rome. I'm glad they decided to serve missions. I have such happy memories of my 18 months, I wish I just had enjoyed the crazy times instead of feeling so much guilt. I felt like I did have opportunities to serve the Lord and my fellow man. The above journal entry to the contrary, I didn't feel it was a waste of time.
The Red Light District singing--Rev with his crutches
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13 comments:
It was the best of times. It was the worst of times...
My mission experience is something that I still cannot really make sense of. I do have many positive memories and important religious experiences, but like you was too often saddled by guilt.
I took things sooooo seriously that i rarely gave myself a break. I have never been able to seperate the good from the bad and it is my pile of religious mess that I keep in the closet.
I put myself through mad amounts of guilt on my mission, but I know that I was doing my best to do what is right, and thus I do not regret my two years, even if I was ultimately misguided.
I just kind of stumbled across your blog and got caught up in your list of books (books that my husband and I just eat up) and then reading about your mission. My husband also served in France. One thing that I've noticed about missionaries as I get older is that, Sure, they are the Lord's emmissaries. But they are also just young adults who typically haven't really been out in the world on their own yet. And I think everyone can look back over their old journals and see that they are a different person now and/or wish they had done things differently.
You were called Tabitha because you reminded us of Tabitha Stevens...
"Tabitha", I totally forgot that day. It brought a smile to my face journeying down memory lane. I, unlike you, did not record such a great event in my journal--and I so appreciate reliving it. I have some photos of that time, but not much. Thanks Sis Lund for the memories.
Anon,
Oh my heck!! How did you find this?? Please email me--clbruno at hotmail. BTW, I googled Tabitha Stevens to see who she was--a p*rn star?? I don't think so! She was only 11 years old when we were on our missions--we're getting plenty old, buster.
Porn star? Wow...I was thinking more of the TV show Bewitched...hehehehhe
oh...by the way, I wish I could be so thin now...we are plenty old...but not as old as some...I know someone is reaching the half way mark soon....ah-hem...hehehehe, I even forgot you wrote the letter to President...and again...everyone was flushed out, but one...hehehehhee
oh, please, you MUST email me.
I guess that one who wasn't flushed out was the righteous one.
AND Tabitha Stevens on Bewitched, wasn't she the baby? So it's either a p0rn star or a baby, huh? Oh well I'd rather be known for my magic than for my body.
Speak for yourself on the halfway mark, I am still SEVERAL years away...
nah...as far as flushed out...the one was left because he looked back and turned into a pillar of salt...and yes you were remembered for your magic..."Victory for Jesus!" I forgot the rest of the song...hehehehe
well, magic enough to have two daughters on a mission...hehehe
Oh, my! I forgot I used to sing that song on my mission.
do you have pics of the day you fell in the water...
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